I am not the me I was.

This may be the clearest example of the recent inner shift in my soul, and I’ve been searching for ways to explain this you but I think I’m just going to have to show you: The accomplishment reached deeper than the 18+ months of work, beyond the effort and push for the reception, exceeding the amazing turnout from my people. The greatest accomplishment was the pure absence of anxiety during those last stages of effort—that I’d travelled through the recent months with nearly no nerves about this exhibit, excited but not anxious. While outwardly celebrating and oozing with gratitude at both the show and the support, I’ve been speechless over the inner space and calm that I carried through the last few months of work all the way to the end of the reception. No worry. No anxiety. No perfectionism and urgency. I am not the me I was.